If I Had Spoken Sooner

I'm not sure
what it is I feel.
Is it love,
or am I mistaken,
as I have been before?
If it's anything less,
then why do I feel
the pain I feel?
Why do I feel nothing
but anguish
when I see them together?
Sometimes I look at them
and wonder...

Would he have chosen me
if only I had spoken sooner?
If I had told him
"I am in love with you"
would he have felt the same?
Or would it even matter?
Did he ever feel anything for me?
Did he choose her because
he thought I did not feel the same?
Or have I always been
nothing more than a friend,
an aquaintance,
someone he knew?
Would it have made
any sort of difference
if I had spoken earlier?
Or would the result be the same?
Would it change things if
I said something now?
Or is it too late?